i'm finally posting.
Friday, May 29, 2009
yepp ... have been MIA-ing lately.... welll, for maybe 2-3 months alrd. Well, i juz didnt feel like blogging. or rather, too busy with tests. Anyway, its june hols alrd.
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I really wonder what my future wld be like. Would I be a teacher? i really do not hope so. Yet, i am unsure, unsure of what paths i would take, unsure of whether the road leads to a dead end.
It seems scary, really, to do things out of the ordinary, yet this things thrill me, excite me, sending adrenalin pumping through by veins. The thrill of being truly free, of doing what i want, but yet, not restricted to worries and my own timidness. It scares me really, but it is really oxymoronic. Something that you want, yet afraid of reaching out for it.
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Time really passes by. You really hardly notice it passing by. Juz like a shadow, hovering over you , following you, and engulfing you. By then, all that is left is ashes, isn't it? But i choose to believe in God, and his many promises. I know i am not and never can be worthy to be his daughter. i know i break my promises and my deep-dark secret still remains. But surely, i know, God loves me and thus, i would trust him , as my Lord and Saviour. I hope that when i go to heaven, God would call me his good and faithful servant. i really, must be more obedient to God.
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Confusion strikes me as i think about the situation in my church. It juz isnt right. Not at all. So much bitterness and could i say, Hatred. However, i do not hav the right to judge, Do I? I leave the rest unto God, who grants me strength.
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Well, i bought a black sharp scientific school calculator today:) ITs really nice. ahhahha... but i feel so guilty for losing my white calculator, and even more, for asking my mum to fork out 10 bucks( half of the calculator's price).
yeahhhh. And i bought a pencil box and hairband. Shopping was fun. yeppp
U know what? i feel kinda guilty for critisizing my form teacher. She's actually not that bad, and i really do not hav the right to say bad stuff abt her. My fault.... :(
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yepp. Time to eat spagetthi( wrong spelling, eh?) lol. byes. sayo nara: ) :)
posted at : 5:24 PM
